If you dislike foul language, I’d suggest you just skip on to the next entry in my journal, because there’s about to be a huge rant with much profanity involved!
Okay, you asked for it!
Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. Fuckity, fuckity, FUCK! Goddamn fucking narrow-minded doctors who can’t pull their head out of their asses long enought to stop worrying about malpractice and take care of their fucking patients! May they all die of huge, terminal hemmorhoids!
*sighs* You’ve probably guessed that I had a doctor’s appointment this morning *laughs*….fucking bitch….may she have huge hemorrhoids for the rest of her pregnancy.
Why is it that doctors can’t understand that just because normal blood work means most people are normal, it doesn’t mean that everyone with that value is normal? Just because my thyroid tests fall in the normal range doesn’t mean that I don’t fucking have a thyroid problem. Look at my goddamn fucking symptoms, would you? And goddammit, stop telling me I need antidepressants. I’ve taken the fucking things and they didn’t help! Yes, they helped with the depression, but not with the fucking symptoms of hypothyroidism….bitch! Didn’t you learn in medical school that depression is one of the fucking symptoms of hypothyroidism? Yeah, don’t bother to read the research I brought with me. Don’t talk to the doctor in Houston that resolved *all* of my symptoms with supraphysiological doses of thyroid. And stop looking at your damn watch, dammit! You’re at the very least going to listen to my tirade if you aren’t even going to try to do anything to fucking help me!
ARRRRGGGGHHHHH!
*sighs again*
There, I’m better now, but I had to get that out or die!
So, needless to say, I’m in the market for a new doctor. I’ve written up a letter that I’m sending to every doctor on my insurance that is taking new patients to see if I can find one willing to discuss prescribing a supraphysiological dose of thyroid, with proper monitoring of course. It comes to 53 doctors in 2 counties. Hopefully, one of them will be reasonable and not about to suffocate from having his head up his butt so far. I do have a few hopes. There’s two DO’s on the list, and DO’s tend to be more open minded and less reliant on test numbers for treatment. I mean, really, if test numbers are all you need to treat a patient, a computer would do the job better than a human! A couple of others are obviously European, and my experience is that European trained doctors also tend to be more open to alternative treatment methods. As a matter of fact, the only research I could find on peripheral tissue thyroid resistance was from European and Japanese medical journals. So, out of those 5 or 6, maybe one of them will be willing to take me and my plethora of medical problems on.
Sorry for the rant, folks. One day I’ll write an essay on the problem with Western, particularly American, medical training. But I’ll save you from that for today.
June 30th, 2006 at 9:55 pm
Major Rant Ahead…
The (expletive deleted) antidepressants…….
July 1st, 2006 at 12:11 am
Ack! I hate doctors like that! It’s so infuriating when some one you’re paying doesn’t bother listening to you. I hope you’re able to find a doctor who will listen to you so you can get the treatment you need.
July 1st, 2006 at 4:56 pm
Thanks! I’m calmer today. I sent out 51 letters to doctors in the area this morning, so I’m hoping to get at least one interested. We’ll see what happens.
July 1st, 2006 at 7:15 pm
ok, now tell me how you really feel…i know about asshole drs..i had one dr. who was making me crazy but constantly looking at his watch and butting in when i would try to tell him anything..so finally while im heavily medicated after my 2nd of 5 back operations i finally told him ‘you have the worse bedside matter of any dr. i have ever had, and if you’re smart, you’ll retire as soon as possible…’ he said what do you mean..? and i said well……you have a personality like a sack full of hemhroids…..
he retired that summer…
July 1st, 2006 at 9:51 pm
Yeah, I’ve had some incredibly great doctors in my life, but I’ve also had a large number of grade AA assholes. Doctors always want to know why my blood pressure is high in the doctors office *laughs*. I tell them if they’d been accused most of their life of being a hypochondriac, then their bloodpressure would go up too!
And do you know what the most frustrating part is? If I’d been a man, they would have been falling all over themselves to figure out what’s wrong. If you’re a woman, they leap for the antidepressants without even running other tests.
Don’t get me wrong, I think antidepressants are wonderful. They were truly a godsend to me at a very difficult time in my life. I’m all for the appropriate use of mood elevating drugs. But too many doctors use them without first ruling out other problems. Instead of “Oh, you’re depressed? Let’s do a complete physical”, it’s “You’re depressed? Let me give you some drugs”.
This chick yesterday didn’t even check my hair and skin to see if I was telling the truth about those. She never touched me in the entire visit. Yeah, she ranks right up there with the endocrinologist they referred me to who treated me by mail. I shit you not. She saw you one time, and after that she mailed you the forms for blood tests and then another form letter telling you if you should change your med. She didn’t so much as get feedback from you in the form of a symptom questionairre. If you ask me, her manner of treating borders on neglect. I certainly will never see her again, and I tell anyone I know with thyroid problems to avoid her like the plague. If anyone is in the Bellingham area and want to know her name, contact me privately and I’ll give it to you.
And now, I’m going to quit ranting and go to bed. *laughs* I’m sure you’re all sick of listening to me.