Archive for June 23rd, 2006

June 23, 2006: 8:30 pm: MaritziaReligion/Spirituality

Yes…again…

I’ve had marginally more energy this week, so I decided it’s time to try working on the grounding exercise again. I tried in the morning, but I tend to just fall asleep, so I thought I would try some while I was taking the doggies out before bed this evening.

I started by taking my shoes off and standing barefoot in the yard (I made sure the spot was free of dog poop and creepy crawlies *laughs*). I did some deep breathing exercises for a minute, then started picturing myself sprouting roots deep into the earth. As I sent my roots deeper and deeper, I pictured myself pulling in energy from the earth, and as I did, I sent my arms up toward the sky and pictured limbs and leaves sprouting. I felt the leaves taking the sunshine and using it to produce energy while breathing out all the impurities and contaminants in my system. As I breathed in, I pulled energy and life from the earth and as I breathed out I let go of the negativity and pain through my leaves.

I did this for a couple of minutes, and then decided to sit down. My balance is rather poor and I felt uncomfortable just standing there. However, when I sat down, although I still had my bare feet against the ground, I felt like, without my weight on my feet, that I had lost some of the connection with the earth, and I just couldn’t feel the same energy. So, I discarded my chair and continued for several minutes standing. I finished by gathering up the excess energy and picturing it flowing into my arms, and as I bent over and pressed my hands to the ground, I pictured the excess energy flowing back into the earth, but keeping the energy I needed. I finished by thanking the Goddess and the Gods for all the wonderful things this day had brought…the warm sun, the cool breeze, and the delightful call of a bird that sounded just as I was finishing my meditation.
It’s been a while since I’ve done any guided imagery, and I was surprised how fast I flowed back into it. Now that I know I do better standing, I’ll try it in the morning, too, to get energy for the day.

One thing that really surprised me was that the dogs didn’t bark. After my initial warning to them to not bark, they just ran around the yard sniffing at things, which is quite unusual for them. They’re miniature dachshunds, and they yip at every bird chirp.

So, that was my first experience with this exercise. I thought I would work on this for a week and then move on to the next.

: 9:14 am: MaritziaPersonal

The boss is leaving.  The university wouldn’t take the step organizationally that he needed for them to take, so he’s taking the offer out of Chicago.  What that means for me is hard to say.  They will probably make the associate director the interim director, and she says they tend to leave those in place for a long time (sometimes years) as long as things are running well.  The thing is, she already has a secretary, so where does that leave me?

Needless to say, my stomach is in knots.  I’m trying really hard to take a wait and see attitude, but my first impulse whenever I have trouble is to jump ship and run.  It’s what I do.  I’m trying not to let that part of me take over, but to wait and see what the Divine has to tell me about all of this.  If I *am* supposed to move on, I’m sure I’ll see the signs.  So, until then, I wait.

So, if I’m really bitchy in the coming weeks, you’ll know why *laughs*.  I don’t wait well.